Just me and my God
For most of my life, I thought that prayer had to be done in a particular manner. You know, kneeling down or standing and making really strong physical gestures as though one is in a physical battle with unseen creatures. Don't get me wrong,that is prayer of course. And because almost everyone around me prayed in that manner and I just didn't ,I didn't validate my prayers. I would think to myself , you're doing so badly ,look at others ,kabashing ,and you're doing nothing. That made me feel so far away from God and at some point I didn't even care about my relationship with him , because in my head ,I always said ,"What's the need ,I can't even be like them" but God being who he is "always" finds a way to remind me that no matter how far I feel from him,his presence is "always" welcoming . There's no reason to cancel and invalidate my prayers with my thoughts or what others think when God has already said that he he